25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food,… More
So, a major decision in my life was made yesterday, and it is to step up in my service, from a Youth For Christ member to Singles For Christ, because I am not getting any younger.
Yesterday, I had a fresh start in Singles For Christ: Christian Life Program. The first talk was about the God’s Love. Since I came from the family ministry as well, I am already aware of God’s love to me, but then, I just felt that it is all a fresh start and renewed faith.
The speaker emphasize God’s love through others. Making the people around us the channel of His love.
Then I started reflecting,
Do I thank those people enough because they have been with me in every ups and downs in my life? Or do I just take them for granted? So as well as, am I a channel of God’s love to others? Am I being a blessing to others? Do I share God’s love as well to the people around me?
After the talk, the challenge was, we could give back the love God has given to us by loving others, but how can we love others?
When I just thought that I had the God’s message already by that afternoon, right after the program, I had a date with my co-Youth for Christ in a cafe. From our seat, there is this decor that says,
“He has made everything beautiful in its time.”
My heart is still broken from a relationship, but I am reminded today to be back in the waiting game, and be His princess again. I believe in His timing, perfect timing.
Going back to the message of embracing others as a sign of loving God. Just this morning I received a phone call from my grandmother, saying she needs me to be her companion for two weeks. I will be back to her house, where I was during my high school days. So responding to God’s love, I believe that I must show my love to my Lola.
And also, this morning, I received an invitation from my college friends to have a mini catch ups, I never really contacted them since our graduation, and I now is the perfect timing to catch up things with them.
I just can’t believe how God is moving accordingly to His messages to me. He told me to bring back the love to others, then here comes my grandma situation. He told me that everything is beautiful in His time, the he gave me the invitation to catch up things with my college friends.
And what’s more interesting and loving about myself today? It is that everything is starting fresh and it is all because of God’s love to me. ❤
Here’s for the new start with the people around me, new beginnings with the feelings within us, and new challenges of life with God.
If you’re reading this, I also challenge you to bring back God’s love to others. Let us be a channel of God’s love to our surroundings.
ISA – Isang balde ng luha na yata ang nailabas ko dahil sa sakit, physically at emotionally. Hindi biro isipin ang mga bagay na gusto mong gawin ay makakasama para sa’yo.
DALAWA- Dalawang kurba ng likod ko ang nagpapahirap sa’kin, taas at baba. Kung tutuusin, pwede namang isa lang, bakit dalawa pa ang napunta sa akin?
TATLO- Tatlong X-ray na ang meron ako, at ni katiting walang improvement. Minsan ayoko na sundan pa ito, dahil wala na akong napapala pa.
APAT- Apat na marka ang iniwan sa akin ng brace ko, isa sa kaliwang bahagi ng likod, kanang bahagi ng likod ko, sa tyan at sa may pelvic bone ko.
LIMA- Limang buwan akong nagsuot ng brace, mainit, masikip, matigas. Sa limang buwan, naghirap ako na hindi yumuko, mahirap magcommute, sino nga ba naman ang gugustuhin ito?
ANIM- Anim na buwan akong nagtherapy, tumigil sa trabaho, at nahiya sa magulang dahil sa gastos. Anim na buwang nagluluksa dahil ang walang kwenta ng buhay ko.
PITO- Pitong exercises ang ginagawa ko araw araw, noong masipag pa ako, pero sa pitong iyon, unti unting nabawasan hanggang sa mawala na sa daily routine ko.
WALO- Walong minuto akong inuultrasound sa therapy ko, at isa yun sa pinakamasarap na pakiramdam, narerelax ang likod ko.
SIYAM- Siyam na bawal sakin:
Bawal magbuhat ng mabigat
Bawal mag long travel
Bawal sa extreme activities
Bawal na maghapon nakatayo
Bawal na maghapong nakaupo
Bawal sa extreme rides
Bawal makalimot ng pain reliever tuwing aalis.
SAMPU- Sampung beses akong nagdoubt sa Iyo, sampung beses Kitang sinisi bakit ako pa ‘yung may ganito. Pero sampung beses Mo din akong inaaffirm na kaya ko ‘to, at Ikaw ang bahala sa akin. Sa kabila ng sakit, nakita Kita. Hindi Ka umalis sa tabi ko, at salamat, G.
Wala namang kahit sino sa atin ang may gusto ng sakit, pero may choice tayo, kung didibdibin natin ang sakit o hindi. Sa kaso ko, hindi ko na didibdibin, dahil kahit baliko ang likod ko, may likod pa din ako. Hindi ko man kaya ang magtravel pa, umiiyak man ako sa sakit kapag 5+hours na ako sa byahe, wala akong pinagsisisihan dahil masayang magtravel. Pero this time, kelangan ko na talaga seryosohin pa ‘to. Kelangan ko na magpatherapy ulit, magbrace ulit. Dahil kelangan ko na isipin ang future ko. Haha.
Btw, 47° curve ako, operation na dapat, pero ayoko. Bukod sa kulang financially, nakakatakot din. Haha.
Oops, ‘wag ka maawa sa akin, dahil hindi porket ganito ang binigay ng life sa akin, nakakalungkot na. Ganito man ang binato ng buhay sa akin, nagpapasalamat ako kasi kasabay namang binigay sa akin ang mga taong nagmamalasakit sa akin. Para sa mga taong grabe kung alagaan ako, salamat. Pinaparamdam n’yo sa aking mahal n’yo ako.
Oh sya, 2:30am na, at nagsulat lang ako ngayon para malipat ang atensyon ko, dahil nagising ako dahil sa sakit ng likod ko. Haha!
In case you haven’t read my Photography section in my blog, here’s a glimpse of what I do in my life:
I am a part time event organizer, photographer and videographer. But only on birthdays, mostly debut, and on our community-church events. I am still finding courage to do the wedding events, because I am afraid that I might ruin the supposedly happiest day in the lives of the couple.
This time, I wanted to show you this family photo.
Nicole was our client last year, August. She messaged us online and inquire about our services. At first, I thought, she wanted a simple debut, nothing much to prepare, but I am amazed on how her parents wants to give her the best.
Her father works abroad, but went back to Philippines for her debut, and that is the most important and appreciated effort a father could give in his daughter’s birthday.
I love how accommodating this family is. And how they talked to each other as if they are all close friends. I knew that no family is perfect, but, they manage to be perfect in my eyes, all because all I can see is happiness and love.
Looking back at their picture, I remember the love they reminded me. And I’m sharing you other photos from her debut.
Thank you for reading, friends! Btw, I have a question, I am afraid that my raw pictures could fill the 3GB space here in WordPress, how can you guys upload so many pictures here in wordpress? hahaha. Thank you in advance!!!
When life is just so toxic and all you need is a really quick getaway from the city works, this is what happens:
An Overnight trip to Puerto Galera!!
Since I have my birthday leave, at least I used it with a superb quick vacation.
From Cavite, we rode a van going to Batangas Port. The travel time is almost 2 hours, and from Batangas Port to Puerto Galera, is almost an hour.
We booked at the hotel a day before so after we landed the Sabang Puerto Galera, we head straight to the hotel.
We made a mistake, we thought that the White Beach and Sabang are just in one shore, so we decided that it is okay to booked at Sabang, we can just walk right to White Beach, but it is not.
Sabang, PUerto Galera is good for Scuba Diving, it doesn’t have the beach you were longing for, it is purely for the Scuba Diving. We didn’t do scuba diving, but on Batangas Port, we were offered to do some activities such as, Snorkeling, Underwater cave, Sand bar and other beaches.
So friends, if you want the normal beach, go to White Beach, if you are going to book a hotel, please always check the location. So you won’t have the same mistake as we did. We just looked at the brighter side so we won’t be having any regrets.
We booked at Tropicana Castle Resort. The Resort has its MEdieval Themed castle, with 5 floors, one swimming pool, fitness center and rooms has its own blower, bath tub (you just have to pay additional 500.00 for it), heater and television, for only 2,000.00, I am telling you, it is worth it.
We checked in by 1:00pm, a little relaxing a tour in the resort and we get ready for our adventure.
The boat we rented was waiting for us in the shore, and it was big for just the two of us, we met Kuya Jay-R, and he said we will be transferred into a smaller boat.
and here it what the smaller boat look like,
Unfortunately, my action camera’s water proof case broke just before we go to Puerto galera, so I was crying for its wrong timing. Snorkeling was really the best experience I had, better than what I had in Cebu. The corals are huge, there were so many fishes. It is the best!
So here are some of our photos as well.
Sorry not to give you detailed blog about this trip, I was so heart broken for my camera, I wish I could share you how beautiful underwater sea in Mindoro is.
For the breakdown of cost:
From Pala-Pala to Batangas Port= P165.00
Lunch @ Batangas Port = P60.00
Batangas Port to Sabang (round trip ticket) = P500
Environmental Fee, Sabang = P50.00
Activities (Snorkeling, Beaches, Underwater Cave) = P1500.00/2 person = P750.00
One night at Tropicana Castle = P2,000.00/2 persons = P1,000.00
Dinner = P140.00
Lunch = P70.00
Environmental Fee from Sabang = P30.00
Tricycle Batangas Port to Grand Terminal, Batanagas City = P70.00
Batangas to Cavite = P160.00
ALL IN = 2,995.00
This is a very quick and tiring getaway. Haha.
But as I got back to Cavite, I feel renewed, no regrets in the past, and ready for what life is going to throw me. 😀
Thank you for reading!!
“You jump off cliffs even though you can’t swim”
Oh. That hit me.
My office mate referred this movie to me because she saw me in the movie. And I was curious of why she saw me in? I was never an actress. haha. But I already had the hint since I watched the trailer months ago.
The girl in the movie, Maddy, is sick, her immune system is too weak for the world outside. So she was just locked up in their house with everything sterilized. She never had a life outside the house for 15 years. And for me, it sucks.
So, how I found myself related to the movie as well?
Same as Maddy, I was not allowed to travel much, to do other and extreme activities, because I have a Scoliosis with a 47 degree curve. My doctor says I am a candidate for an operation, but I don’t want, and there’s another option, to wear a hard brace. Wearing hard brace made me quit my job, and almost quit life (life as in the enjoyment of life).
But like Maddy, I wanted to know what is to live life, to know that we are alive.
I quit the bracing and therapy, I just wanted to enjoy life. But, I still do the exercise taught me in therapy for less pain.
I found a job, just 20 minutes away from our house, very convenient for my back. I start travelling again, and live my life.
Just like Maddy, we don’t know what life is until we have the courage to know it.
One scene I liked in Everything, Everything is when Maddy jump off the cliff without knowing how to swim. And I was like, “OMG! I already did that, but, I drowned. haha”
Yes, I drowned for 5 seconds I think? I jumped in a waterfalls, and unlike sea water, waterfalls are different, they are not even salt water for me to float. And most epic was, our tour guide didn’t even know I don’t know how to swim. hahaha.
But, I managed, I am alive and here I am blogging to you my experiences.
So Maddy, thank you, I somehow felt that I am not alone, we all need courage in life to know what it is to be alive.
In two days, I’m turning 22! Horay!!!
22 years old is actually my dream age. I feel like I can do all the things I can and want. I am really excited of what life will bring me, or where would life will lead me.
My previous birthday has been days of expectations, and yes, I still expect this birthday to be a memorable one, not until a man told me, “Just be thankful for the years of your existence. Appreciate what you have.” And then from that day on, I never expected any surprise from any people in my life.
So today, I decided to list 21 things I am thankful for!
21 THINGS I AM THANKFUL FOR BEFORE I TURN 22.
Who would not be thankful for the gift of life? Life has thought me so many things, how to deal with ups and downs, how to trust, love and so many more. I thank God for being alive, I could experience more and more. Life is so wonderful! ❤
My family may not be perfect, but, who has a perfect family either? But I am very thankful for having them by my side to support and love me in every way they can.
The gift of work of course, I am very thankful for it. I may not be on the top of my career right now, but who cares? I am still young, and I am girl with so many dreams, it is not yet too late to pursue all of it.
Yes, as I said, I have so many dreams, and I am thankful for these dreams because they are the ones who kept me motivated in life. I love to dream so as much as to explore.
Yes of course, I thank for the gift of travel, I am really blessed that at my young age, I had the chance to travel, to know and understand other provinces’ culture and beliefs. I’m 21 and traveled 21 provinces, I am really looking forward for more now that I am turning 22!
The gift of service, in which I am so much thankful of. Service gives purpose to my life, seeing kids, and youth being encouraged, and sharing God’s words to others is really my passion. I am glad to spend my 21st birthday in a mission trip, and there’s nothing I can wish for. Serving God is where I think I excel the most, expanding my love not only for the kids but as well for other people.
This year, I’ve been to Mindoro twice, and to Cebu. And I love the feeling of going beyond our borders to spread God’s word. But there is still a mission or calling perhaps, I still need to pray for, indeed this is a bigger calling but I also believe that this calling could bring me so much joy and content in my life. *If you are one of our core reading this, yes, I am still praying for that calling, you know what it is.*
Yeeeees!!! I have my service partner this year, and he’s is so MAKULIT. Nevertheless, I am so much thankful for him for being by my side when it comes to funky missions, he is one reliable friend!
I may not be in a relationship now, but hey, I’ve been in a relationship while I’m 21. And I thank God for that relationship. I learned so many things from him, and I believe God sent him to me to learn new things, and I did. I learned to love in the capacity I didn’t even imagine! I never thought my heart was capable of loving that much, and even it ended up with a break up, I am still willing to love another chance, dahil, MASARAP MAGMAHAL. 😀
You might want to ask, “Who wants the gift of responsibility?”, Yes, its me! I never thought that God would be so generous to me that by the age of 21, I could help my parents send my brother to college. And my brother is now 20 years old. I am proud, that at my young age, I am able to help my parents. This is a responsibility that I love.
I thank my low-key and high maintenance friends. hahaha. They helped me to be more open to others, to adventures and to opportunities. How those biglaan moments with them turn to be one of the memorable moments in my life. I love them, and my life won’t be complete with out them.
My 21st journey was not always good, but I experienced the pain I never had before, the Heartbreak. But, I am also thankful for that, because I am still alive. for a second, I thought pain could kill me. But here am I, happy and contented of what lady I became after that pain, a stronger and more matured one, so, I owe you one, God! Thank you for this life lesson!
Bravery! I also never imagine how brave my soul is! I remember when I jumped in the waterfalls in Cebu without knowing how to swim, I am so proud of my self! And thank you God for giving me the gift of bravery!
Love!!! Thankful of the capacity of my heart to cherish love and not anger. Yes, Love conquers all, and I am deeply rooted in love with God.
(I don’t know if the spelling is right. haha) But I thank God for the sideline works, Ienjoy all of the events and planning I’ve done this year! And planning to go more, from debuts to weddings! Horay for dreams and sidelines!!
Don’t misunderstood, I don’t have kids of my own yet, but, just today, I heard a kid counting 1-20, and I remember, yes, Kids brought purpose in my life, they are the cutest human being, the way how they discover things, how they speak and how their chubby cheeks feels when I’m touching it, *It’s so fluffy, I wanna dieeee*
Cameras! Yes! Life is boring with out a camera. I love how camera teaches me to capture beautiful moments and creations of God. I love how this little thing can change my perspective in life.
Notebooks! They have been my best friend this year, they knew all of my funky things in life, goals and even my feels. Ooops, I also knew what am I praying for, always. They witnessed my life, my prayer life of course. And I love them together with …
Thank you for being there when I needed some advise in life. It is you who I always hold on to, Your words bring clarity and wisdom to me, in every decision I made this year, you were with me. I love you every morning! ❤
I included computer because I can write this blog through a computer. haha. 21st year and I spent it all day with my computer in office. So I guess, this is one thing I should also be thankful for.
Yes, yes yes!!! Thank you for this software because I was able to edit videos again. haha. Eery time I try to edit videos, the feels, the music, the excitement, I love how all of it combines, and even if I end up sleeping late, its all worth it. And I am looking forward for more videos this 22nd journey!!!
Surely I missed out some of the things. haha. As I end up this blog, I realize what kind of girl I am. I was refreshed of the people I love and the things I enjoy doing!
22nd journey, I am very much ready for you!!! Here’s for journeying with God to wherever path He is leading me!!
Thank you, Lord, I know you are now whispering me a very “HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ARA! I LOVE YOU” up there!
Oh yes, of course, I’d love to go out of my province as well, and the 81 provinces of the Philippines is in my Bucket list!!
21 OUT OF 81!! And dreaming of more travels!!
Batangas Cavite Laguna Quezon Rizal
Occidental Mindoro Oriental Mindoro
Albay Camarines Norte Camarines Sur
Antique Capiz Iloilo Guimaras
Zamboanga del Norte
Zamboanga del Sur
Lanao del Norte
Davao del Norte
Davao del Sur
Agustan del Norte
Augustan del Sur
Surigao del Norte
Surigao del Sur
CORDILLERA ADMINISTRATIVE REGION
Autonomous Region of Muslim Mindanao (ARMM)
Lanao del Sur
When life is so good to you, beware of what will happen next.
I saw this warning on social media, and I knew for sure, it is true. But in my case, I always challenge life of what it can throw to me. When my life is so good, I’m not waiting for what will happen next, instead, I ask God to throw challenges in my life for me to be stronger. So I did, I asked Him, and He threw the biggest challenge and pain I ever experienced. *I still thank You, G! Though it still hurts!*
For the past month, when people see me, I always receive the “You look thin, Ara” or “What happened to you?” or “You look sad and depressed, why?”. From those moments, I finally accepted, I am in pain, I am hurt, I am depressed, I am becoming less and less of the woman I wanted to be.
That started when I asked God, “Lord, I am very happy, everything is in the right place, but I wanted to be stronger, can you send me the pain which I can’t handle?”. Then my boyfriend and I broke up.
I can never express in words how painful it was, to finally broke up with your love, with the one you used to pray, the answered prayer in your life, the one God lead me to, my human diary, and to the one who I saw my future with. I felt like my whole being as a woman collapsed. I never imagine that I can cry every morning, every evening, and cry myself to sleep for three weeks. Within that three weeks, there was never a day I didn’t cry, I didn’t question God of
“Why did you let him in my life if you are going to take him away from me?”
“Why did you lead me to him if he’s not the one?”
“You knew I am reserved, you knew how much prayer I say to You, when he started courting me, You witness how eager am I to discern, to pray and you told me that “Yes, my daughter, he claimed you to me, and be brave to fall in love.” and I did, but why is this happening?”
Days, nights, and working days when I stopped working and think about us, tears started falling, those days has passed, and nothing I felt but sadness, loneliness. For the first time I felt I am alone, I am tired, I don;t want to live in this cruel world of pain anymore.
A week after the we broke up, I tried diverting my attention in travelling, but during my travel, once I stopped a moment, all I can think was him, him alone and the pain goes back. But I keep on cheering up myself that I can be happy again, so I tried my very best to be happy in my travel trip. I thought I was over him, but no. The moment I got home, I started to cry again in my sleep.
The second week after we broke up, I didn’t eat my dinner for a week, I have no appetite to eat my breakfast, I just need to eat my lunch so I can still live. I tried hanging out with friends, but all I can hear from them is “You look very sad. Did you cry?“
The third week, I keep on asking myself, “Where did I go wrong?”
The feeling of emptiness is not a joke, I cried, I tried to ask for help in my friends but I also felt I am building a barrier from them. I wanted someone to be there for me, but I also wanted to be all myself. I wanted to conquer this pain, with God.
The most painful truth is, we still love each other. But it is against all odds. I think, we did not fall out of love, but we fall out of commitment. Why, Am I not the kind of woman a man should commit with?
Sometime during my work, a question pops up in my head,
Am I ugly? If I am a pretty lady, will he stay? Will he still commit?
Am I too demanding? If I was a low maintenance girlfriend, will he stay? Will he commit?
Am I not lovable already?
Am I not the charming one who I used to be?
Did I stressed myself too much that I didn’t have the glowing face anymore?
Is this why he can’t commit to me anymore?
AM I NOT WORTHY?
AM I NOT THE IDEAL WOMAN?
AM I NOT ENOUGH?
What is the lesson you wanted me to learn? I have given you all, all of my prayers just for me to have the right decision, you answered me with very clear messages, but why is the outcome is not like what you have answered me?
God, I prayed for a heart that never stops in loving people, but here am I now, tired of loving, but never wanted to stop in loving. I still feel like my heart is fueled with love and I can still give more love to one who broke it. But no, I don’t want to love him anymore, not with these broken pieces of my heart. He is too good for me to love him with broken pieces, so heal me God.
That man, I still wanted to pray for him, he is a beautiful man, a respectful man, and I knew him for years, he won’t do anything that would intentionally hurt me. I knew it wasn’t his intention. I knew how much he loved me back then. I can’t get angry with him, and when he comes back, I still wanted him in my life.
But God, help me. Help me to conquer this pain, mend my broken soul and heart. Make me able to love again and again, with a whole heart.
Those WHYs and WHAT IFs, I knew you wanted me to learn something from this pain.
Maybe, you put him in my life to be a blessing, and you took him away to be a lesson.
But whatever that lesson is, I thank you for a lesson with such a beautiful experience.
We laughed, we loved, we prayed, we fought, we eat, we walk, we giggle, we did a lot of things together, and that is something I would cherish, forever. This is the beauty of pain I learned. In this pain, we learn to accept and cherish good memories.
Thank you, for such a wonderful experience.
If my heart is capable of loving this much despite of pain, I am excited of how much I can love the right person for me. But for now, help me prepare myself to be a better woman/daughter of You.
Have you ever experienced staring at children and a certain question suddenly pops in your mind? Like “What could be the future of these kids?” or suddenly prayed “I wish I am a kid again, no worries and all fun”. If you are the kind of person who always reflects, I bet you already experienced it.
As for me, I always experienced it. I always ask, “Can she still remember me years from now?”, “What could be their work when they grow up?” “Would they stay as kind and sweet as they are now when they turn to teenagers?”
Last weekend, a conference was held in Legazpi, Albay. (behind the scene photos are already posted in my previous posts) And I think that my questions above are already answered.
Who would imagine that these person was once our Kids For Christ?
And now, they are with me serving the Lord. Yes, it really sounds I am an adult now, but I think it is one thing I am proud of, I grew up serving the Lord. And I am gladly to serve the Lord with the people who I used to served for.
As I grew serving the Lord, I realized that I am standing for Jesus already. I will still stand for Jesus as much as I can.
These kids we used to serve are now also serving other kids. And it answers my questions. Kids can be a servant of God as well if we only pray continuously for them. Kids can be a servant of God if we never let go and never give up to them. Kids can stand for Jesus if We can also stand for Jesus.
As for my stand, I wanted to share these photos of kids that our team captured during the conference.
Something I liked the most to kids is their innocent faces. It is so innocent that all I want to give them is the love of God that needs to be shared. I always pray that their hearts and minds would be open for Christ, instead of worldly things in life. I pray that they would also have the heart of a servant just like those who were once kids and now serving the Lord with me.
Here’s a calling for us, servants, we need to stand for Jesus.
Since these kids can see us as their role model, they would also imitate us, so as We Stand For Jesus, these kids will also Stand For Jesus.
Just like last year’s conference, this year’s family conference has been so personal to me again. It is also a calling for all to strive for our family, just like these families.
This emphasize the need for a family to catch up, even every dinner. In our family, it is a must to have a dinner together while our mother asks us “Kamusta ka?” / how are we in our aspects in life, a daily catch up, like, how was my day at work, how was the day of our younger brother at his school, how was my elder brother’s client deals, simple questions that really meant a lot for us. And there were times when I was away from them over the weekend to attend conferences like this, they always say that they miss me, and asks how was the conference. As soon as I get home, there’s the need to catch up with them and I would tell them how happy the conference was.
Family should be the major strength in us, when life gets rough, I know there’s a group of people (my family) who has my back.
So I say, Family Dinner is very important.
I thank the Lord for this conference, and I am excited for what’s next for us.
For us, again, Let us Stand for Jesus and finally declare that
WE STAND FOR JESUS.
“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland” Isaiah 43:19, NIV.
Throughout my walk with Jesus, I have experienced many ups and downs. There were days when I felt as though I was in perfect sync with God, and others where I felt nothing but condemnation for my shortcomings. Every time I would mess up, I set myself back. I imagined myself on an endless staircase with no destination or end point. In my mind, I kept heading upward on the good days, the days I felt holy, and filled with a heart of praise and thanksgiving. Then, on the days I didn’t feel so great about myself or knew I missed the mark and blew it yet again, I imagined I fell down a considerable flight of stairs. One step forward on the good days, ten steps backward on the bad days.
I felt unworthy, would beat myself up over my mistakes and thought I had to serve my “time-out” and perform better before I could come into the presence of my Savior again. This is a nuclear defense of the devil. When we mess up, his condemnation and guilt sweep in to put a wall between us and our Father. But what does Jesus do? He makes all things new. He hung on that cross so that when we fall short, we can receive His sweet forgiveness. He is ready to forgive us, before we even come before Him to ask for His mercy yet again.
Sister, there is now no condemnation to you because you are in Christ Jesus (see Romans 8:1). That mistake you made, He casts it as far as the east is from the west, and He remembers it no more (Psalm 103:12; Hebrews 8:12). The sin you committed, He washed in His blood. The mess you made of things, He has made new and is creating a divine purpose. He is focused on your future, it’s time to let go of your past.
He is saying to you today, “I will carry you forward. Stop punishing yourself. The price has already been paid. I carried away your shame, your sins, your insecurities. I rescued you from the power of darkness and placed you in my Kingdom. You are mine and I’m taking you to higher ground now.”
Prayer: Father, I thank You for your endless mercies and Your forgiveness. Lord, I ask You to forgive me of my sins and the times I have failed You. Help me to put the past behind me as You already have. Help me to stop punishing myself, and step into Your righteousness that You have given me through Your finished work. Carry me through, Jesus. I welcome Your sweet presence to fill me, and make whole every part of me that is broken. In Jesus name, Amen.